On The Cusp Of Something New

Deborah L. Wade Photography

I can't believe it's been ten years. That an entire decade has passed. Staggering, isn't it, the passage of time?

What was the 'it', you might wonder? What happened? Or, what did I do? Why was it such a big deal? Well, on a wintery January evening, back in 2014, while the rest of my family slept peacefully and I lay in bed, wide awake, I did something that changed my life forever. The actual 'it' was a seemingly simple physical task yet, at the same time, it was a monumental leap forward for me, personally.

So, what did I do? I typed a word into the elongated oval-shaped Google search box. A very singular, very specific, eight-lettered word. A word that had been floating around in my mind for quite some time. I typed, p-a-r-a-n-o-i-a. From the very moment, the very millisecond, that I tapped the enter key on my iPad keyboard, my world spiralled off in directions I could never have foreseen. The eventual result, later that summer, was me leaving my almost 20-year marriage and starting a new life on my own (with, of course, my three children by my side).

Over the past ten years, since first starting my self-directed research project on what, potentially, could be the cause of my then-husband's somewhat questionable behaviour and unique world perspective, I have come a long way ... baby! Today, as I reflect back on all those days, weeks, months and years, I'm staggered by all that I did accomplish. Yay for me! I won't bore you with a long list, or repeat myself from thoughts shared in past blog entries. Suffice to say, I (finally) feel that all my healing, all my tearing apart of the past, all the self-analysis, insight gained, all the tears and screams and moans and groans, all the thousands upon thousands of words typed out in four (yes...four!) evolutions of my memoir manuscript (with Draft #5 already in the works), that all of that has got me to the place I really and truly want to be.

This week, I will interview and be considered for three different jobs, in two different industries. And no, neither one involves river rafting or tourism (despite what I wrote in Travels By Deborah last week!). Two of the opportunities are in the writing industry, while the other is in the non-profit sector, specifically helping women who are in, and want to leave, abusive relationships. Can these potential jobs be any more appropriate or suitable?

I actually feel that all my hard work has (again, finally) paid off. And, that patience and persistence won out in the end. That today, I am, at last, on the cusp of something new and exciting, and involves aspects of the world that truly feed my soul (like river rafting did).

So, stay focused out there. Go the distance. Go after what you really want to go after. 'Cuz, one day, you might just find yourself exactly where you want to be!

Happy Sunday.
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Deborah L. Wade Photography